Had a dream about a girl

there was like a time in my life, that I didn’t remember, where I met her, and was with her for a time. I met her again, and remembered. I don’t remember the details of this dream. She had red wine, and it symbolized something. I forget. I remember there was a name, and I forget it.

I don’t know why I would try to connect this, but I did. I went to the grocery when I woke up, and I saw a girl I went to school with, with her daughter. I didn’t say anything to her. I have considered “pursuing” her, before. She is always dating someone, though, and honestly I don’t see much compatibility, for reasons. But I considered the seeing her after this dream, even though I don’t see any real connection.

Across the street, I got gas. While getting gas, ahead of me I saw a car pulling back toward me, out of it’s space. It’s plate was 385 and letters MGZ. The girl’s daughter is named Maggie, and I seem to recall her calling her “Mags”, in Facebook posts, so when I saw this directly after, I considered this. 385 is a number I have been finding focus on lately.

I don’t know. I just wanted to write.

385 I first “saw” with some consideration that I currently can remember inside a graphic in the shape of a butterfly. I have since made associations with multiple things, including fruit, to this number. The other night I went to Whole Foods, and a very “plump” female was at the register. She is new– this was the first I saw of her. She has red/orange hair, which is real, because you can see her eyebrows are also orange (and there are just phenotypical markers that go with being ginger…you can tell if someone has dyed their hair). As I stood there, waiting for my turn in the lane, I looked down and saw Taylor Swift’s ‘reputation’ album, as I was facing it. I used my gift-certificate that my parents gave me for the groceries, and then I saw, directly from processing ‘her’ – her album there in front of me, that the remainder that I owed after using the certificate was 11.10, and considered that this, 11/10 is the date that the album came out. Then I saw a multi-colored butterfly pendant ¬†at the end of a necklace the girl (Alex) at the register was wearing.

I don’t really think this is anything that I might think. I don’t want to make judgments, though, either way. I don’t even know if what I am seeing or hearing or thinking or feeling is straight-forward. In-fact, it would seem I might be stupid at this point to think anything was straight-forward. My “judgement” is often reserved. I may love, but this is what I might consider, within the margins that make up my perception in this reality (?) – unconditional. But, no matter how “close” I feel sometimes, I understand things are not quite as they may seem, especially if I’ve made a conclusion, except for perhaps “love”. But this kind of love also lets go. Or at least, consciously, I try to. Admittedly, sometimes it’s a struggle. This world drags me in, and tempts me, no matter how I may resist.

I still have self-interest. I try to find that in alignment with what exists…

One Response to “Had a dream about a girl”

  1. admin says:

    I guess the 385-car was of the same color, similar to the wine in the dream? The Wine however was translucent.

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