Archive for December 31st, 2017


Sunday, December 31st, 2017

sometimes clothes cause allergic reactions. i have a pair of red socks i can’t wear because i get throat swelling-feeling. i am starting to think that other clothes do as well, and this is where i’m getting certain reactions from. i never get skin reactions. for me it’s always something in my throat – in the left side. it’s annoying.


Sunday, December 31st, 2017

Sometime before, possibly after my last entry, I thought about Sylvia Hoeks- An actress who starred in Blade Runner 2049. I was thinking about watching it (purchasing, on digital). Why I thought about her, I thought it came from writing about Danish genes (she’s Dutch, and I thought, from memory, that she might be Danish – but they are near).

I felt more drawn to look up information about her, while in the shower.

The first time I have looked at her Instagram page was then after. My last entry I write about body and mind, or mind and body. Her last post, she is in a pose, and talks about Yoga, and the last words in it are capitalized: “THE MIND TAKES UP TOO MUCH OF OUR TIME AND SPACE.. LET THE BODY JOIN IN”.

I also considered that her last name, Hoeks – the sound, like “hoax” (not to say it’s connected, necessarily, in any ‘real’ sense) – and it’s meaning, I thought and confirmed after relates to a “nook” or “corner”. I connected that my first ex-girlfriend (that I was serious about, who I considered marrying) has the last name, Calhoon, meaning “nook”, or “corner”, also, and that she was the beginning of my relationships with females, on this level – and that after her and the rest of them, I wrote their names and saw the first letters spelled out the word, “mask”. The first movie I saw with her was Blade. The second may have been Soldier (in theaters), which was a spiritual successor to the first Blade Runner film (I had yet to watch it, or know about it).

Sylvia’s character’s name, Luv, may mean “particle” in Sanskrit. Or it could mean “Love”, which may go with this- Love-itself, also with this, the fact that she resembles Rachael from the first film, who was Rick Deckard’s (blade runner in original) love-interest. And Love, as a name, may mean “female wolf”, which also goes with this character.

Replicants in the original film were said to live for 4 years. From the birth of my first ‘real’ girlfriend, to my last one (and youngest), there were just about precisely 4 years. One was born July 2nd 1981, and the last July 1st, 1985. This is 1-day shy of 4 years. After them I met one other who I considered in a way the same as the others, and who was the first that I told about seeing the pattern in the letters from the first names, along with numerological alignments of sorts (first female, in person). I met her 9723 days after I was born. There was a deadline I was to consider related to her wanting to remove storage – I was to help her, that came 9731 days after I was born. This was a cause of my messing up around her, causing confusion, and insecurity, with the confusion. 9732 I saw were numbers of Rick Deckard’s apartment, in the first movie. This person had just moved into a new residence when I met her. Storage was to be moved out, to there.

healthy in mind, and body

Sunday, December 31st, 2017

if i were healthy in my mind, i may take the time out of life to get repairs to my body. i need to repair many teeth, and currently my right hand doesn’t work like it did– neither does my left, but my right effects my hand more. i would like to play video games again. i just tried to simulate playing by holding the controller, and the trigger-finger actions can’t be done without pain.


I may not accept your terms

Sunday, December 31st, 2017

I doubt you’re being honest, too.

Danish DNA and happiness

Sunday, December 31st, 2017

“The results were surprising, we found that the greater a nation’s genetic distance from Denmark, the lower the reported wellbeing of that nation. Our research adjusts for many other influences including Gross Domestic Product, culture, religion and the strength of the welfare state and geography.

The second form of evidence looked at existing research suggesting an association between mental wellbeing and a mutation of the gene that influences the reuptake of serotonin, which is believed to be linked to human mood.”

Evolution didn’t stop below the neckline (or in the skin), and 200,000 years ago.

Continuing off the last entry/post: Danes live around Danes. Danes have developed a certain way, socially, and feel safe around other Danes to some degree, that is certainly different from how others feel around their own or others. Government (and/or corporations/businesses) moves Muslims and Blacks in. For whatever reason(s), crime around these groups is greater. Many sociological issues happen. Danes feel less safe in their own country. Danes are still expected to give up more space, by whoever expects these things. More space, and more of themselves. The fortune they got to, or their families have brought them to in their group’s evolution, is used as a tool to shame them (“privilege!”), especially if they’re not giving it away, or “sharing it equally”, even with those who won’t reciprocate, or simply cannot. Danes, simply, have fewer Danes around. And it would follow that they have to compensate for fewer “happy” people. They have fewer happy people to rely on. They have more people that would get mad if they showed some ankle or drew Muhammad or walked a fucking black dog in the park.

If it is genetics, and if happiness is a strength that can be strengthened through genetics, and if Danes have a certain make-up that benefits them in happiness, mixing with others would not prove to be a “diversity is strength” scenario. It could be to the detriment of anyone wanting to continue something good.

Frankly, multiculturalism-itself as it’s being promoted is an attack on people like Danes. It’s neglectful – that these are people, too. It neglects this, and treats them as if they’re king/queen-gods/goddesses that have been around since Ancient Greece and it’s time for them to play fair. It neglects the laws of nature.

By this, I actually think Hitler “was right”, in respects. Or, at this point, I would almost be willing to set back the clock and see how things went, his direction. Because this is fucked.

Do white people have a right to self-determine – to exist as separate, distinct people, with/following their own interests?

Sunday, December 31st, 2017

I often read something like the title of this post.

I think more clearly it should be…”Do you think that people have a right to feel/be safe?”, because that’s basically what the reality is that it comes down to. If you add a number of Muslims to Germany and Germany is now 50% Muslim, “Germans” won’t be as safe.

White people are being victimized.

Jews move to White countries to be safer around White people and White civilization/society.
Arabs move to White countries to be safer around White people and White civilization/society.
Blacks move to White countries to be safer around White people and White civilization/society.
Etc. Meanwhile, Whites have fewer White people allotted to them, and feel less safe. And more confused. They go up. We go down, to meet them. More like we get dragged down.

We did develop differently, and we are different. And really I don’t completely recognize the idea that we’re brother and sisters in this life; I tend to think of other races as enemies, sometimes– Along the lines of completely different species, because we really shouldn’t breed with them, in most circumstances. Things are circumstantial, but it should not be promoted. I tend to think the Old Testament views are more aligned with reality. Like, where it is said to not allow your sons and daughters to marry these others, because they might worship “other Gods”. If I can relate a God with a law, and religion with law, and custom with law, then certainly, we live according to different customs than others, and our culture is different, and the way of our society is different, and marrying outside is a potential threat to the “worship” in this way, to this God (and what a people have come to accept, and what they desire/expect in their basic processes…what they value). Do you like foot binding? How about eating albinos? How about female genital cutting? In a way, interracial mixing is definitely against God… And you ask all these others to follow you. You stretch the skin and now it’s ugly in this spot, and it makes everything ugly. It’s ugly and weak. It’s a liability. It requires extra care. All this attention.