Archive for December 14th, 2017

Sandy Hook / 12/14

Thursday, December 14th, 2017

I had previously associated something about this with females, through some synchronicity…

At times, I may say someone was, or something was a “first”. There are multiple ways first-experiences happen. I can say that a girl a few or four years after this was my first girlfriend, or I can say that a girl who had my birthday- Who was born one year after me, was my “first girl-friend”. I find it useful to separate them, as some relationships can be compared more easily to each other, like I was at a similar time in my life or with a similar ability to comprehend the goal. I don’t think I thought of marrying the one who had my birthday, when I was “going out” with her as a child for the couple of days I was. I don’t think I really thought of marrying the first girlfriend I had, in middle school, which was years after. I barely talked to her, even though I was attracted to her, and probably biologically capable of contributing to reproduction of offspring at the time.

Anyways, my first “girlfriend” when I might say I could be a part to reproduction was named Jessica, and she was born on 12/14. I just noticed this, although I have associated in ways the Sandy Hook event where children were shot by a guy who wrote in a document the shooter titled Selfish that “all women are selfish”, with females.

There is a closest-major highway to Sandy Hook, or the land-formation that is like a hook seems to point to this highway, called 278. 278 is a number that I found as a gematria of four names, using the first-legal names, of four exes, whose names have initials of K, S, A, M. My sister lives in “Sandy Hook” neighborhood, as well.

Jessica (meaning “he sees”) had a last name that may mean “labyrinth”. Her father was who I got my first car from. It was a rebuild. I had her mother for English when I got the car.

There were 26 people at the school that died by according to the story. He had shot his mother prior, and then the shooter shot himself after.


Thursday, December 14th, 2017

I wrote about not wanting to “force” something, one night/day, and then later in that period received an order for a patient born 12/15, which is the day the new Star Wars will be released.

But being honest, I’m not really that excited about it. I wish I could be, but I know it’s going to be “anti-white”. Sure, it will use white actors as stars- This isn’t really the point. A white female, also, to sell the film to a mostly white audience. And once again per the formula of the last two films, there will be very “diverse” actors filling certain roles, supporting, and the imperials may likely be mostly/all white (and mostly male). I may see it, but I will be curious about this. I wonder if they will have made it less obvious.

The thing is I want to enjoy it, but when I really look at it, I can’t like it. This has been the case with the last two Star Wars films, as well as at least Thor: Ragnarok, and the reasons are the same. They’re “anti-white”, and promoting dissolution of anything that makes us separate from them, and disrespectful.

The order would be the last extra order (where I need to know the birthday) that I picked up. If I don’t pick one up today before midnight it will be the last before this film’s release.

No matter what they’re trying to mirror, or attack, they are using “Identity/identities” that happen to be real, and cannot simply be written off as “socially constructed” (key- “written off”). Everything in this is largely due to the unity or cohesiveness of a group that happens to be “white”. It wouldn’t have been possible without it. Even the director, who is white, is married to a white woman. And most of these “Jewish” directors are also married to more-or-less white women. And they’re going to have white offspring, who look more like the empire that they portray as “evil”, in this film, than the diverse rebel-groups.

I don’t quite know how to frame this perfectly, but it doesn’t sit right. Add the fact of this portrayal of “single” identity (that’s white) with that the empire is more or less portrayed to be “evil”. They’re attaching unity of one identity to this evil (what if they were East Asian?..These are people!). And at the same time, the children of those creating these pictures most likely look very close to this identity. They’re hypocrites. They’re trying to make a buck. But keep using those white women…you brainless parasites. You really are like an infection.

Nasty mother fuckers.

I used to think a girl looked like Sandra Bullock

Thursday, December 14th, 2017

She played soccer with us. I saw Sandra Bullock in a film today that was playing on the television (I don’t see much television, and haven’t seen her in awhile), and then on Facebook I saw the girl as a friend-suggestion, very near the front. I don’t look at these often.


Thursday, December 14th, 2017

when I got to work I had 229 miles range estimated by my car. I had followed a car with this plate number off of an exit just before. I thought it said something, and then saw it when near. Later, I saw that the powerball jackpot was 229 million, as I drove past a sign. I never play the lottery, but I considered it. Earlier ‘today’ I wrote about two gematria for my name, and 229 is also one-other.

175 miles was the range at 11:59, and 12:00 A.M. It had been, this day, a birthday of a female who has become of interest recently, to me. I just just associated the number 176 with a “length”, so I considered this proximity to the span of the day, this number near.

I thought about how it was windy, on the way to work, and how she is a singer. It was very windy. I looked at Facebook and saw a post made by a person with a name associated with the singer, asking about something about a power generator, and a Wendy had commented. Hers was the only comment immediately in view. I had previously associated her (artist/singer) with “power”/electricity.

I saw an actor in a show called The Notebook that I hadn’t seen since a film recently, that I in ways associated to her. I considered the name of this (“The Notebook”) as I drove to work, with my associating wind with her. Wind/”notes”.

When I got to my (first) destination, I heard a loud, consistently sounding whistling, like one might hear through trees, but it was slightly different, as it was effected by the buildings near. It was one of the most stable/long-sounding whistling I had heard like so, from wind, in awhile (that I can remember).